"But flies will lay their eggs."
I'm sorry if the messages are excessive, but I really appreciated your post. I've been diagnosed over and over (with discrepancies about whether I have Bipolar or Major Depressive Disorder) with BPD, and i've also realized how more and more people are beginning to 'experience' the disorder. I felt bad thinking that perhaps people were bullshitting for attention and it often made me fly off the handle when I saw posts in the tag that CLEARLY had nothing to do with the disorder. So it was very

validating to see somebody else make that realization. I just don’t understand why BPD has suddenly become the ‘hip new’ diagnosis to have. It’s stigma among mental health care providers is so shitty that it’s hard enough to find a doctor who will treat you, let alone a doctor who is willing to stay in it for the long run with the tantrums, splitting, etc. I just don’t understand it- I’ve even stopped posting about it on my blog because i’m sick of the questions about anon’s diagnostic profilesand people attempting to relate with what I post, when in reality they are just making a mockery of the 24/7 internal war I experience. I don’t think that people realize BPD is essentially being a child emotionally- you don’t really have the coping skills to process and cope when you’re stressed, triggered, etc. Looking at it from my experiences….I don’t see what’s desirable about attacking a loved one, running after them 5 minutes later feeling abandoned, hating yourself, then repeating….

I assume there’s more to this ask, but I’ve noticed the same thing. My oh shit moment was at a seminar on mental illness at ASU covering personality disorders, and as soon as I was able to, I went to a campus psych who told me “textbook”, which was both relieving and world-crushing. I finally had an answer for why everything was terrible, but no real way to solve it completely.

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cosmicallycosmopolitan:

demonic-lionfish:

cosmicallycosmopolitan:

Delaney (witchy-w0man or demonic-lionfish )does really good commissions, from writing to other arts. She can even write fanfiction for you. You guys should talk to her about it :)
she’s talented, i asked her for some writing today.

SPEAKING OF WHICH I NEED TO KNOW WHAT KIND OF FIC YOU WANT

DO YOU WANT A FLUFFY FIC

ARE THEY STILL EVIL

IS IT ADORABLE 90’S SITCOM FAMILY SHENANIGANS

I NEED TO KNOW

Evil with sitcom family shenanigans!

THAT’S WHAT I WAS HOPING FOR THIS IS GREAT

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Just saw your BPD post and I TOTALLY agree. I have BPD for real (haha) I think I've had 9 professionals confirm it over the years and I attend an outpatient DBT program right now 2 days a week. Anyways it drives me crazy how lately it seems like EVERYONE on this website is borderline?! I can't post a single thing about it without getting all these messages like "I'm 15 and I have mood swings and I read the wikipedia page on borderline and I have that symptom of impulsive behavior (cont'd)

(cont’d) because I smoke cigarettes sometimes.” Like uhhhh, sorry, but NO. And I like looking through the BPD tag sometimes except then I see people being purposefully ridiculous and then saying “oh I can’t help being a selfish princess bitch it’s my borderline~*” Anyways I like how you said it’s NOT a quirk and it’s NOT cute. Hope I haven’t annoyed you, just wanted to say I appreciated and agreed with your post!! Have a nice evening. :)

Aw, thanks! I mean certainly being a selfish princess bitch is a symptom of borderline, but the thing is, it only lasts as long as the cycle does, until you cycle around again. People conflate borderline with being a fucking asshole all the time or engaging in a few risky behaviors or having some bad depression or whatever and I’m like

no

borderline is your boyfriend telling you it isn’t fair that one minute you absolutely hate him and want to be done with him and are literally keeping him at arm’s length and then the next, sobbing on the floor, and an hour or two later after the disassociation passes, being the sweetest human being on the planet

it isn’t fair, for us or anybody who lives with us, and it makes me feel hopeless that right now I’m not at the point where I can take steps to fix that (especially since DBT requires a LOT of time that I don’t have because of the poverty thing) aside from the baby steps and half assed help that regular therapy gives you

I feel like I need to be heavily medicated in order to maintain and control, and even though I know that’ll never solve the problem, it’s fucking sad that the only thing that can pull me out of a cycle is literally 50 mg of Valium like this is really not something you ever want to have

feeling empty on the bus every morning isn’t a good thing to have

being reminded of tiny little things from the people you idealized and hated and still idealize and hate in cycles and being thrown into an existential crisis/ennui for hours isn’t a fun quirk and it’s not a very common thing, professionals have guessed that mine came from anger issues from my parents (because I’m a really angry, explosive type borderline) plus the fact that they put more emphasis on my future than my present and emotional needs (plus being ostracized by my peers growing up and having my problems always always ALWAYS swept under the rug)

it seems like people read girl, interrupted or read all the wiki pages for personality disorders and found the most rare, most pain in the ass one and wanted to have it for some reason

when I first read about BPD I delved into everything I could about it and I thought to myself “yeah, you know what, this explains everything, I’m seeing a shrink” and within the first day on a few diagnostic tests he gave me he said I was literally the most borderline borderline he’d ever seen and it was a wonder I was functioning

sorry for rambling but it really really really hurts me deeply to see that sort of shit

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Why do you get hate blogs? You're super nice

wh0rewh0rewh0rewh0rewh0rewh0re:

demonic-lionfish:

mickeyblowsyourmind:

demonic-lionfish:

cosmicallycosmopolitan:

demonic-lionfish:

cosmicallycosmopolitan:

demonic-lionfish:

downloades:

demonic-lionfish:

Because I can snap and be super brash, and because my views aren’t extreme at all (except for about the judicial system and drug policy).

actually you get hate blogs because you’re a homophobic piece of shit

cosmicallycosmopolitan because you get people like this asshole that have literally no brain just some hot air between their ears

Are they a nazi?

nah, just your run of the mill dickweed

You’re too nice to get those, even so

if u say so

I’m kind of feeling like a dickweed right now though myself (if you want to chat send me a fanmail, boyfriend has the phone)

how the fuck is delaney homophobic ?????? O_o

they think I’m homophobic because as a member of the LGBTQIA community I choose to use the word “faggot” in the same way as South Park does when someone is really, really, REALLY acting like a faggot

You know

an obnoxious asshole

it makes me so homophobic to want to try and change hateful language as a member of the community it was used to hurt

so homophobic

"I’m asian so I can use the word "nigger"!"

stupid bisexual cunt

tumblr’s finest, ladies and gents

the most useful part of you dripped down your mother’s chin, or perhaps out of her ass, or any other orifice she may have used that evening upon your filthy conception

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cosmicallycosmopolitan:

Delaney (witchy-w0man or demonic-lionfish )does really good commissions, from writing to other arts. She can even write fanfiction for you. You guys should talk to her about it :)
she’s talented, i asked her for some writing today.

SPEAKING OF WHICH I NEED TO KNOW WHAT KIND OF FIC YOU WANT

DO YOU WANT A FLUFFY FIC

ARE THEY STILL EVIL

IS IT ADORABLE 90’S SITCOM FAMILY SHENANIGANS

I NEED TO KNOW

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You’re never going to please everybody but when someone you love tells you that a piece of your art hurt their feelings you definitely feel like a worthless piece of trash

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Why do you get hate blogs? You're super nice

cosmicallycosmopolitan:

demonic-lionfish:

cosmicallycosmopolitan:

demonic-lionfish:

cosmicallycosmopolitan:

demonic-lionfish:

cosmicallycosmopolitan:

demonic-lionfish:

downloades:

demonic-lionfish:

Because I can snap and be super brash, and because my views aren’t extreme at all (except for about the judicial system and drug policy).

actually you get hate blogs because you’re a homophobic piece of shit

cosmicallycosmopolitan because you get people like this asshole that have literally no brain just some hot air between their ears

Are they a nazi?

nah, just your run of the mill dickweed

You’re too nice to get those, even so

if u say so

I’m kind of feeling like a dickweed right now though myself (if you want to chat send me a fanmail, boyfriend has the phone)

Uh oh i texted you like a minute ago

lol it’s okay I just don’t want you to text me for a conversation and then be like WHY IS SHE IGNORING ME

It’s because my phone is in Milwaukie, picking up drugs

I asked you for permission if i could promote you commissions lol

oh yeah, of course!!!!

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Why do you get hate blogs? You're super nice

mickeyblowsyourmind:

demonic-lionfish:

cosmicallycosmopolitan:

demonic-lionfish:

cosmicallycosmopolitan:

demonic-lionfish:

downloades:

demonic-lionfish:

Because I can snap and be super brash, and because my views aren’t extreme at all (except for about the judicial system and drug policy).

actually you get hate blogs because you’re a homophobic piece of shit

cosmicallycosmopolitan because you get people like this asshole that have literally no brain just some hot air between their ears

Are they a nazi?

nah, just your run of the mill dickweed

You’re too nice to get those, even so

if u say so

I’m kind of feeling like a dickweed right now though myself (if you want to chat send me a fanmail, boyfriend has the phone)

how the fuck is delaney homophobic ?????? O_o

they think I’m homophobic because as a member of the LGBTQIA community I choose to use the word “faggot” in the same way as South Park does when someone is really, really, REALLY acting like a faggot

You know

an obnoxious asshole

it makes me so homophobic to want to try and change hateful language as a member of the community it was used to hurt

so homophobic

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Why do you get hate blogs? You're super nice

cosmicallycosmopolitan:

demonic-lionfish:

cosmicallycosmopolitan:

demonic-lionfish:

cosmicallycosmopolitan:

demonic-lionfish:

downloades:

demonic-lionfish:

Because I can snap and be super brash, and because my views aren’t extreme at all (except for about the judicial system and drug policy).

actually you get hate blogs because you’re a homophobic piece of shit

cosmicallycosmopolitan because you get people like this asshole that have literally no brain just some hot air between their ears

Are they a nazi?

nah, just your run of the mill dickweed

You’re too nice to get those, even so

if u say so

I’m kind of feeling like a dickweed right now though myself (if you want to chat send me a fanmail, boyfriend has the phone)

Uh oh i texted you like a minute ago

lol it’s okay I just don’t want you to text me for a conversation and then be like WHY IS SHE IGNORING ME

It’s because my phone is in Milwaukie, picking up drugs

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Why do you get hate blogs? You're super nice

cosmicallycosmopolitan:

demonic-lionfish:

cosmicallycosmopolitan:

demonic-lionfish:

downloades:

demonic-lionfish:

Because I can snap and be super brash, and because my views aren’t extreme at all (except for about the judicial system and drug policy).

actually you get hate blogs because you’re a homophobic piece of shit

cosmicallycosmopolitan because you get people like this asshole that have literally no brain just some hot air between their ears

Are they a nazi?

nah, just your run of the mill dickweed

You’re too nice to get those, even so

if u say so

I’m kind of feeling like a dickweed right now though myself (if you want to chat send me a fanmail, boyfriend has the phone)

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